I Never Thought...

I find it hard to believe that I am approaching a year that I have been seeing someone. I find it harder to believe that there was someone out there that seems to be made just for me and that she actually is willing to put up with all my "stuff".

Being a recovering addict is hard enough, but trying to date one (as Dawn is) is even a more difficult task. Intellectually I know how to live one day at a time, and to deal with life on life's terms, but so much emotional baggage can rear its ugly head that can be more of a challenge.

One of the things I have a hard time with is opening completely up to her. So many times in my past the most important people in my life have used things against me. But time after time, she has shown me that she can accept all that I am and has never pretrayed my trust.

The best part is she is a believer in Jesus Christ. We share a faith in God. We pray together and we worship together. We struggle together and we rejoice together

It feels nice to let my heart love again. It feels nice to have that loved recieved.

Thank you Dawn for loving me!! I love you so much!

Food For Thought

Here I am trying to excercise more and eat better, one day at a time and my friend Wunderkraut writes about his obsession with pork products!!

Eating healthy takes work!! Normally when I got home from work I would toast a bagel and slather that puppy with lots of cream cheese!! Instead I got some Orange Roughy from the store, some tomotoes, scallions, bread crumbs and baked it. Add some rice and steamed brocolli and it was a very tasty dinner. This is not a fullfillment of some new year's resolution,but the evolution of behavior that began neary 4 years ago. It began with getting sober and now that attitude is spreading to other aspects of my life. I am glad this process is not about perfection...but rather....progression....one day at a time.



Hmmmmmmmmm..... it does look good, I was pleased with somethng a bit more healthy.

You Got to Be Kidding?!?

Is this what they meant by stimulous package?

Uncertainty

I found out over the weekend that a company that I had worked for has closed its manufacturing facility in Ohio. Just today I recieved an email from a friend that still works there saying that several business units are up for sale. With all this uncertainity in our economy and the constant barrage of negativity from the daily news it is no wonder that we have trouble remaining positive.

We may think losing a job or a business failure will prevent us from ever going forward in our career. We may be convinced a difficult childhood will keep us from healthy, loving relationships. Or we may feel that a physical limitation will keep us from true fulfillment. Not so in God's kingdom! Just look at what Nick Vujicic has done with his limitiations. What can we do with ours?





Let us also lay aside every weight and the sin that clings so closely, and let us run with perseverance the race that is set before us. (Hebrews 12:1 NRSV)

So Much for The Contract with America...

I just wonder what all the critics of the Bush admistration think about the new rules (with rather Draconian results) that are being created by Pelosi?

This is just plain cool.

Ok...how do I get one???

1,825 Days Later

The Mars Rovers were built to go only for 90 days. Yet, they are going strong 5 years later. I know our American Car Companies can do great things too!!

A New Year Resolution

I am a day late in this post and ironically my resolution is to write more in 2009. In reflection over the past year I realize that there is much to be thankful for. It is so easy to be caught up in my own feelings and fears to forget to see how God has provided and will continue to provide through out this new year. My hope is that future writings will make me more aware and more appreciative of God's work in my life and in this world in general.