Save Me From Myself

"The amazing true story of an out-of-control rock star, his devastating addiction to drugs, and his miraculous redemption through Jesus Christ."

This is the true story of Brian "Head" Welch's, former lead guitarist and founding member of Korn, deliverance from the shackles of addiction. I picked this book up after hearing my pastor read some sections of it. Immediately I identified with Head in his struggle with addiction and the process of finding our Lord Jesus while in the midst of this insanity.

As addicts we take ourselves out of the whole context of what is right or wrong. We have lost control, no longer having the power of choice and are not free to stop. Eventually addicts die or they recover. There is no middle ground. And to recover we must find God. There, too, is no compromise. Step 2 in AA states: We came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity. This power is God and He will complete take away the obsession of our addictions if we are willing to surrender our lives for His will.

Save Me From Myself is a story of exactly this. It is honest and it is raw, but I have come away, so far, with the feeling of its authenticity. Like Head, I found Christ when I was a teen, and like Head, I turned away and lived an entirely different life than what God had intended. At the church I went too, I still felt disconnected. I felt a distant between me and my Savior and I certainly could not relate to the people I attended church with. I lived in this insanity for decades before coming to the church I now attend.

One of the programs they have is Celebrate Recovery. In CR I met other people like me. Finally, I found men and women that had real issues I could relate too and passionately sought God! The purpose of Celebrate Recovery’s ministry is to fellowship and celebrate God's healing power in our lives through the "8 Recovery Principles." This experience allows us to "be changed." By working and applying these Biblical principles, we begin to grow spiritually. We become free from our addictive, compulsive and dysfunctional behaviors. This freedom creates peace, serenity, joy and most importantly, a stronger personal relationship with God and others. As we progress through the program we discover our personal, loving and forgiving Higher Power - Jesus Christ, the one and only true Higher Power.

I would recommend this book to anyone that wants to see the first hand accounts of the devastating power of addiction and ultimately how God works in the trenches to heal what most may view as lost causes! Head's growing addiction to methamphetamines crippled his career and jeopardized his relationship with his young daughter. After a long battle, Head found God, quit the band, kicked drugs, and lived to tell. His confession holds little back. The bottom came when a tweaked-out Head hears his 5-year-old daughter, Jennea, sing the misogynistic lyrics to Korn's A.D.I.D.A.S. ''I was already in the gutter,'' he writes. ''I knew it was time for me to try and reach out for help.''

Thanks for reading.